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Abbie-Keziah </3 Who is she? I dont know anymore. Shes Wasting away. See her:
AboutMe: 99% of the time, its me aginst the world. Sure I have friends, but they don't understand me. Nobody does. I have and do suffer from chronic depression. Yep thats me, The Emo girl. Labelled most of my life. I'm 5 foot 5 with shoulder length brown/black hair, Very dark brown, almost black, eyes, a straight nose, big eyes, long eyelashes. I love makeup and could go a day with my eyeliner. I'm 15 and I live in Cornwall, South-west England. I currently weigh in at 120lbs, my initial goal is 100lbs and my secondary is 95lbs. Help Me Get There. I'm always looking for new people to talk to and new ana buds. (: I go into severe depression about 3 times a month. I Hate my life, everything about me but most of all my body. I hurt myself and I will probably make add to my threads of telling people how **** my life is. No one has to watch these threads or read them or tell me to stop writing **** because nobody cares etc. Its my only outet. I have to get it out before it eats at me from the inside out. Because it will, it will help keep me alive as I have had 2 failed suicide attempts in the last 18 months. When my life gets ****, It gets really ****. It's one friggin thing after another. I don't mind talking to people about my attempts if it will stop them from doing the same. I am over the worst of it and my Dr. recomends talking about it, ( although I refuse to see a psychatrist). It is the worst feeling in the world. Worse than all the self harm. Worse than Being cut off from everybody you love. Waking up to find that you have failed again at something, to learn that you are still alive, still in the **** situation ( if not a worse one) that you were in when you did it. It's taken alot of courage to put this out for anyone to read, please respect it, it's the first time I have just put it out there. xx MyMusic: I listen to a lot of music for inspiration. I play the clarinet and the drums, and write alot of songs. My music gives me motivation to get up and do some excercise or to just sit and think about lyrics and my life. ( Again labelled the Emo child.) I listen loads of bands like Good charlotte, Avril Lavigne, Metalica, My Chemical Romance,AC DC, Iron Maiden, Led Zepplin, Blink 182, Bowling For Soup, Evanescence, Enter Shakari, Korn Bullet for my valentine, 30 seconds to mars... You get the point. Mainly Punk, Rock, And metal. TV: Just like everyone else, I do need a giggle I Watch TV shows like Scrubs, Two and a Half Men, Friends, Skins, Mock the Week and stand up comedy. I also watch other shows like Private Practice, Lie To me, The mentalist, Greys Anatomy and CSI. Films: I love films like Twilight, little miss sunshine, Enternal sunshine of a spotless mind, Hancock, Hollow man, The shining, and The Reaping. I'm Uploading new pictures, mainly for my benifit more than anyone elses because as much as I want to change WHAT I am I don't want to change WHO I am. These Photos will help me see the person I was when i'm out with my friends and the Person I am. But these will also help me to move on with my body image, and progress to changing it. Anyone can have a look but I didn't put them up there to be pretty and stuff, I did it to help me and hopefully you, to get on with things without needing food or you'll look like that. Enough To put anyone off Food...      Next time pull the trigger a little faster, Make the rope a little tighter, and cut alittle deeper. No one will miss you here, so no worries... <3 Thinspiration ]  ![[Untitled]](http://image.wetpaint.com/image/1/mA001-yXSSPFclfE3hKwXg57961/GW522H230 "[Untitled]") .         My Body. My Life. My Choice. Hey! Thanks for looking at my page, leave me a comment, send me a message or even better, Compliments would be appreciated! <3 Eat less, weigh less, fail less, feel less. Ultimate Goal: Survival
Latest page update: Oct 19 2009, 12:46 PM EDT
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