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fattyfingerz
Height- 5'3 cw- 119 lbs :'( hw- 125 lbs lw- 98 lbs gw- 70 lbs (dd/mm/yy) (lbs) (bmi) 01/06/08- 112lbs< 19.8 01/07/08- 110 lbs < 19.5 01/08/08- 102 lbs < 18.1 01/09/08- 109 lbs < 19.3 01/10/08- 104 lbs < 18.4 01/11/08- 98 lbs < 17.4 01/12/08- 102 lbs < 18.1 01/01/09- 110 lbs < 19.5 01/02/09- 112 lbs < 19.8 01/03/09- 116 lbs < 20.5 01/04/09- 118 lbs < 20.9 01/05/09- 122 lbs < 21.6 01/06/09- 125 lbs < 22.1 01/07/09- 111 lbs < 19.7 01/08/09- 102 lbs < 18.1 01/09/09- 111 lbs < 19.7 01/10/09- 116 lbs < 20.1 01/11/09- 120 lbs < 21.3 :o 01/12/09- 115 lbs < 20.4 :( think back... the stories read to you untill you fell asleep, running down the hill and sowing grass seeds next to the canal, picking daisies, walking in the snow, trying to do handstands, sitting on the stone dragon in the playground... handprint is still sitting in the concrete snake, how many times you tried to do the monkebars, all your friends, dressing up as a princess... counting the calories you burned at swim club, and how many calories that walk with the cub-scouts burned... you ate too many crisps and didnt lose any weight, how many rich tea biscuits in 90 minutes kayaking? throwing up, gaining weight, losing weight, measuring every inch of your body, noticing every flaw in your body, all the arguments, hating yourself, obsessing, throwing up 5 times a day, losing 15lbs! the smile you had, then noticing all the other fat... weight, size, obsession, addiction... loss. the past that makes you wonder why you're even here, the future that troubles you and worries you with a million dfferent fears, the present that keeps you hovering in the middle... never letting you die, but never letting you survive. and to could just controll mind and body, then that is all i should need, but this lack of self control keeps me in the past, while i move forwards...   ugly as ****. thick as **** :(
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