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Member since: Apr 29 2009, 7:48 AM EDT
Slogan: love is control
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Occupation:student
Home town:england
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MORE ABOUT ME...

I joined this wiki because: no one else can possibly understand, to be honest i havent even given them the chance. but theres this brick wall that stops me from talkin to others about ED. i simply cant.

The best word to describe me is: it depends, epic when happy aloof otherwise

Interests: thriller books, live music, excercise

Favorite movies: romeo and juliet, the dark knight

Favorite TV shows: desperate housewives, family guy,

My hero(es):

My superpower is: keeping secrets

If I could live anywhere, it would be: my imagination

My dream job(s):part time research scientist part time wife part time singer

What else you should know about me: its not about image.its about numbers and how they rate me in scientific, medical and military terms. its an ongoing struggle always seeking the approval of the people that matter to me.

I'm 5ft 3 and heavy
and im not happy.

my life is on hold

my highest weight was 175lbs

my lowest weight was 125lbs

my goal weight is 118lb

and ultimately i want to be 110lbs, but when i get there, who knows what i'll want next

start weight 29th April 2009 148lbs
4th May 2009 138lbs
11th may 2009 142lbs
18th May 2009 143lbs wft?????!!!!
25th May 2009 140.2
1st june 2009

8th june 2009		 138.4

135.0
15th June 2009


29th June 2009 133lbs
6th July 2009 132
13th July 2009 130
20th July 2009 127.4
27th July 2009 127.8
3rd August 2009
10th August 2009 131.8
17th August 2009 126.2
24th August 2009 123.4
31th August 2009 127.1
12th October2009 133.9
19th October 2009 133.9 wtf?!!horse sh*t
26th October2009 129.9
2nd November 2009
9th November 2009 131.0
16th November 2009
23rd November 2009 126.4
18th december 2009 132.0 ive gotten fat again
18th January 2010
25th January 2010
1st February 2010
8th February 2010





GOALS REWARDS
125lbs ED bracelet engraved in silver
120 new hair
118 paints
115 sewing machine
112 London trip
110 trip outt of Europe








i love her...shes so small and frail and fragile liike i want to be
home - AnA BoNeS imgf11812513fn54c.jpg nicole before and after image by nicoletwiggy


my ULTIMATE DRIVING FORCE FOR LOSING WEIGHT is these: facts, figures, numbers, statistics, graphs..the lot!
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i just DESIRE everything to be MEDICALLY perfect, within my range and limits of course. I do not want to be a BAD STATISTIC. and i get there in the only way i know how. So i have a choice


starve and get a hold of my life OR Eat and be ill
becks1


I've already made the deal with the devil in my mind, now i must suffer, but triumphantly, and with grace.





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Chiyo089 hey ^-^ 2 Yesterday, 7:10 PM EST by Chiyo089
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Something about you profile spoke to me. I think you and I are similar, we like the same tv shows, we both want to be small and fragile like Richie and Beckham. Although I think you're closer to that goal then me :S
Just wanted you to know (: and if you don't mind...maybe we can chat, maybe be friends?
have a nice day!^n__n
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saving-jane im home again 0 Monday, 9:14 PM EST by saving-jane
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ok so now im home..ive left my diary at uni so im gona resumewith my profile blogging cos ill need to.. ive recently jsut gottn control of everything again but stuff is hectic atm. i need to exercise, eat under plan, socialse and study and read in order to feel ok. i hve to keep these at a good balance. ive made my plans for the holidays adn things will be ok as long as i stick o the plans.

ive decided to come off my antidepressants. they were making my control weak, and i was becoming sheepish. and even tho i was ok, i still had bouts of craziness. i was cutting the other day. id dont even do that. its because ive gotten so fat at university, my summer clothes are tighter. they used o be baggy. i cant live like this. so im making a stand. ill fix this..i always fix everything. i actually wanna live, but i need to make things ok by may standards.i will fix this.

i left my scales at uni..this is so i make sure i work hard and try not to fixate on evry pound being an indicator of success..if i can make my summer clothes baggy again then thats an indicator that im doing good.


im so gonna fix this
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saving-jane female music 0 Oct 16 2009, 12:47 PM EDT by saving-jane
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ive been getting abck into my female artists again....im really enjoying tori amos at the moment. i never really gave her the time of the day while i was really into my rock and stuff...im still into my rock music...im just rediscovereing what i should have appreciated a long time ago :)
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Temporary_Slave :) hey 1 Oct 11 2009, 4:02 PM EDT by saving-jane
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Hey i like the way you think about your expectations of yourself...you dont wanna be -15 pounds it seems like your being realistic and organized about it...I'm so jealous lol
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saving-jane away for a while 0 Sep 11 2009, 4:55 PM EDT by saving-jane
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going off to uni where i may not have internet for a week.im still alive tho.im very sick atm, but im still alive lol and will be over the next week and after and forever after that lol.

im nervous.
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