I have a blackberry messenger and it sends pictures very fast... I sent a pic of myself to my best friend its a normal picture, I liked it a little, and I asked, " Am I still fat? " .. I know I'm not supposed to do that because I know her, and I know she always says the truth as she sees it, and she replies with " nice pic.. yes, a little.." .. At first it did not bother me, and I sent her another picture where my waste was sure to be seen and I thought I look quiet thin in it actually.. She didnt reply.. :'( and now, all I can think about is after a year of dieting, and a year of ana, how can I still be' a little fat ' .. I swear, I'm guna cry, I feel it coming it, and i will, I even went off at my bo yfreind for claiming that I have a perfect body because I dont know whats true and whats a lie! ... my stick-figured by nature bestfriendstill thinks I'm fat anyways.. why would she lie?

I'm sorry if this sounds like a seek for attention, but the truth is, It is, it really is a seek for attention, and I'm so depressed right now, I want someone to comfort me, I need someone to help me.. and if it is strangers that i've come to love over the past few days on this website then so be it.. Just let me know if anything like this hapends to u.. and what u did to deal with it.. Thanks


Sorry for sounding very depressed, but the tears keep rolling.. I've gone through way to much to be called' a little fat ' .. I sound like such a child right now..

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I'm so ashamed. i do well for a few days. sometimes more than that. but whenever i go home to visit my family, they keep so much food in the house, i always binge. (I throw away my own food) :-( normally i purge but they've caught on. I'm so scared I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow. and I'll probably have to feign recovery. and now i've binged and i can't purge but i feel like I'm going to get sick without trying. I feel awful in every sense of the word.

How do you fake recovery?

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