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pheonixgallery |
how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 1 2009, 3:43 PM EDT
basicaly used to be severly anorexic, the parents found out, forced me to eat a load of shit..including prety much every one of my forbidden foodsbut now i have unlocked those foods as it were, i just cant stop eating them!! how do i get control back?! it's weired, if i'm hungry i can not eat for ages, but as soon as one peice of food goes in my mouth it's like the friggin flood gates open, and i have to eat everything i can get my hands on! how the hell do i stop this 'all or nothing' thing i'v got going on..i HAVE to eat, cus family meal times..and just knowing that i'm going to eat makes me think..oh well if i'm gunna eat, might as well fucking EAT (shitloads) but then if i tell myself i'm not going to eat the i get cravings and end up devouring the entire house :P has anyone else gone/going through this?! please help..it's like i just dont assiciate eating food with gaining weight anymore :S i eating around people, and i think that's kinda the problem, i'm to embaressed to eat properly infront f people, so when theres no one around i eat as much as i can, cus i dont know when i'll be alone (aka be able to eat what/how i want) again please please can i have some advice about how to stop..i just need to break the habit but i dont know how!! Do you find this valuable?
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AnA<3Me |
1. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 1 2009, 4:56 PM EDT
"basicaly used to be severly anorexic, the parents found out, forced me to eat a load of shit..including prety much every one of my forbidden foodsI'm pretty much dealing with the same thing....clinically im still underweight and ana, but WTF look like a cow the clothes that used to hang on me wont even EFF button now...FML! I was put into treatment twice and there they make you think that you're never getting enough calories & they make you eat so flippin much you'd cry! I know how ya feel, but I don't know how to help....just know you're not the only one toots! Do you find this valuable? |
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pheonixgallery |
2. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 2 2009, 8:45 PM EDT
hey thanks! it's s omuch eaiser to know that someone else is doing the same thing!onmg..yes about the cloathes thing!! it's so depressing..i mean i know that i'm still underwieght, but i realy miss not being able to fit into whatever i want..it's like they all make you feel like youve gained noting, but you KNOW that you have gained WAAY tooo much! it's so anyoning cus theyre supposed to be helping you recover to make you feel better about yourself, but they dont realise that your happyest when you that skiny..man, i miss hte days when i could pick up any item in a shop and not have to think 'is it flattering, will my arse poke out funnylike, does this give me muffin top' like my favorate pair of shorts, i used to be able to slip on and off fully fastened easily, and now it's abit of a strain even doing the effin buttons up!! and i swear they give you more clories than THEY could even eat in a day..let alone us! and half the time i dont think they realise that it's not as simple as "i'm not eating this cus it'll make me fat' it's mor like your just freak out if you have to eat cirtain food, and i dont know why, it just is..it's like not understaning why someone who's clostrophobic can go into a cave, but cant go potholing..grrrr!! plus i'm always confused about HOW skinny i am..lliterly i can look in the mirror and think..hey, ok..not bad, and then literrly a pslit second later think..oh fuck where did all of THAt fat/bloat/flab come from! Do you find this valuable? |
allyx081 |
3. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 3 2009, 6:53 PM EDT
Pheonix:Im the same way. I can almost always control what i eat when its planned. But if one tiny thing isnt scheduled or something random or unexpected happens like my friends wanting to get food or something, i end up bingeing. Usually i can talk my self out of it but theres always those times when you say FUCK IT! I MIGHT AS WELL EAT! I CAN JUST WORK IT OFF TOMORROW OR PURGE AND WORK IT OFF! but im trying to stop that. I've found that if you plan your entire day and leave room for surprises you can stay in control. Take a piece of fruit or a low cal bar when you go out. That way if you are hungry or dizzy you can eat it. ANd its not messy or a meal so you wont be embarrassed when you eat it. hope that helped. Stay strong. -ally Do you find this valuable? |
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pheonixgallery |
4. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 3 2009, 7:44 PM EDT
thanks so much..i never thought about it, but yeah, thats exactly when i bindge, wehn i dont expect it! good idea about the fruit/bar...i'm always so embaresd when i eat..almost as if i'm ashamed that i need food so that'll be perfect, plus an excuse not to eat crappy snacky things aswell..thanks ally, realy helpfull :DDo you find this valuable? |
PUNKFuck_Suffers |
5. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 4 2009, 10:32 AM EDT
This thread actualy helps me too.....cause ive just went up a bloody size and I wanna go down like 3. So much work to do but thanks this ones great Good Luck girlies xxxxxxxxxx Do you find this valuable? |
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pheonixgallery |
6. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 4 2009, 12:32 PM EDT
good luck! i bet you'll do it easily..hey, if you've gone up, that means that you can go down..it's if you were allways like that then you'll find it tricky :Swhat size are you now, you dont have to answer if you dont want to strangly, since i'v started this thread i'v only bindged once in the past week, and not even proper bindging..just goes to show how much we can help each other right! stick together and we can do it yeah?! Do you find this valuable? |
doomsdaydoll93 |
7. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jun 4 2009, 3:24 PM EDT
message me and hopefully you can help, thaanks. <33
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little_fairy |
8. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jul 26 2009, 7:00 PM EDT
I had the same problem and it fucked me up big time. I started eating because of the pressure from my family and then I realised I couldn't stop. Only recently, after 1 year (Fucking hell!!!!) I regained control and it appears that I'm the world's fattest anorexic!!! Because I feel and do exactly the same things as I did when I was skinny (+-85lbs) except now I'm still overweight (really overweight, BMI-ish). I've been losing weight continously since my turning point.For me it was a matter of... turning things around, but as I said, it took me a lot of time, too much time! M o t i v a t i o n. You have to find it deep inside of you. And guess what? now my parents tell me i SHOULD lose weight! How nice to hear that for a change. Ironically, now they push me even stronger towards my ed and they will probably regret it. Do you find this valuable? |
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StriveThin |
9. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jul 26 2009, 8:43 PM EDT
My retarded dietician forced me to put on all this shit weight like 30 pounds, and the thing is she's this bitch who's a fricken twig. She just wanted me to gain all that weight so she could feel good about her skinny self while making others fat. When I feel out of control I tell myself that I'm better than her and I'm going to be skinnier than her and it feels empowering.
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creepingdown99 |
10. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jul 27 2009, 6:31 AM EDT
"My retarded dietician forced me to put on all this shit weight like 30 pounds, and the thing is she's this bitch who's a fricken twig. She just wanted me to gain all that weight so she could feel good about her skinny self while making others fat. When I feel out of control I tell myself that I'm better than her and I'm going to be skinnier than her and it feels empowering."What a bitch! That would fucking irritate me so much. Lose the weight and show her who is boss. Do you find this valuable? |
nsugar90 |
11. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jul 31 2009, 5:40 PM EDT
"basicaly used to be severly anorexic, the parents found out, forced me to eat a load of shit..including prety much every one of my forbidden foodsI swear...it's like my voice is projected through you, every little detail you gave there... and wow, i really do want to find a solution. I have the strongest will when I'm starving just the minute an ounce of food is input and it's pure...murder Do you find this valuable? |
radioradio |
12. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Jul 31 2009, 10:17 PM EDT
Damn, I feel like I could have written this. I've fought with the "all or nothing" forever, and it's awful. But yeah, coming on here and talking and all has always been the thing for me. I stopped journaling and visiting sites last year, and it was not a month later when parents found out and made me eat again. Of course they forgot after a week but once I was eating I couldn't stop, for six months. But here I am, back to "nothing". Do you find this valuable? |
neelola |
13. RE: how do i stop post-ana bindgeing?!!
Aug 1 2009, 2:23 PM EDT
Ive been struggling with this for the past two weeks, its so horrible i feel so outta control.I went on holidays with some girls from college for a week to Amsterdam, it was great but i felt so pressured to eat that by the end of the week i was on three meals a day and loads of junk food and snacks. After i got home i felt like eventually i can get back to my diet but it was impossible, and at this point i feel that i will have put on so much weight anyway that more food will make no difference, which of course it will. Im so depressed, i cant control myself. What can i do? Im 8 stone 8 now and was 8 stone 3 two weeks ago, do the math. So i cannot keep devouring food the way i have been. Ill try anything. Thanks, stay strong. XXX Do you find this valuable? |
