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Ohhsuger |
:'( a - little- fat.
Sep 21 2009, 4:48 PM EDT
I have a blackberry messenger and it sends pictures very fast... I sent a pic of myself to my best friend its a normal picture, I liked it a little, and I asked, " Am I still fat? " .. I know I'm not supposed to do that because I know her, and I know she always says the truth as she sees it, and she replies with " nice pic.. yes, a little.." .. At first it did not bother me, and I sent her another picture where my waste was sure to be seen and I thought I look quiet thin in it actually.. She didnt reply.. :'( and now, all I can think about is after a year of dieting, and a year of ana, how can I still be' a little fat ' .. I swear, I'm guna cry, I feel it coming it, and i will, I even went off at my bo yfreind for claiming that I have a perfect body because I dont know whats true and whats a lie! ... my stick-figured by nature bestfriendstill thinks I'm fat anyways.. why would she lie? I'm sorry if this sounds like a seek for attention, but the truth is, It is, it really is a seek for attention, and I'm so depressed right now, I want someone to comfort me, I need someone to help me.. and if it is strangers that i've come to love over the past few days on this website then so be it.. Just let me know if anything like this hapends to u.. and what u did to deal with it.. Thanks Sorry for sounding very depressed, but the tears keep rolling.. I've gone through way to much to be called' a little fat ' .. I sound like such a child right now.. Do you find this valuable?
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WickedChild |
1. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 21 2009, 5:37 PM EDT
I'm sorry hun, that sucks. I know how you feel, I'm constantly getting criticism for how I look, my mom kept saying how I was getting too thin and that I should eat more when I saw her a month ago, since then I've gained 4 pounds and when I saw her a couple days ago she was like, ohh you've gained weight... well thats good, you look healthy. I know that doesnt really sound mean but pointing out my weight gain when I'm ALREADY WELL AWARE is hurtful. My boyfriend sometimes says nice things about me, but only when I saw something bad about myself first. I've asked him to tell me I'm beautiful once a day, and he can't even do that even though he says he "tries". The person who is supposed to love me has to TRY to tell me something nice, and i've told him many times it means the world to me. We went to an event that I've been wanting to look good for and he asked me how he looked, I of course said he looked wonderful and handsome, and he said nothing about how I looked. His friends said I looked lovely and their girlfriends all said they loved my dress and shoes but he said nothing. Anyways. It sucks, I know. When we have zero self esteem and depend on what others think and say to make us feel ok, and we dont get it, or we get negative remarks it hurts like hell. I bet if you posted a photo of yourself on here you would get the attention you deserve from all the lovely ladies :)
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Perfected-dreamer |
2. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 21 2009, 5:44 PM EDT
I THINK YOU'RE SEXY AS FCUK!! Lol, you're beautiful!! And very talented with writing, I've read your poem on your page and it was incredibly high talented. And WickedChild - haha stupid fcuking boyfriends aye. I try to ask mine too say things more too and he's like "But it doesn't register to say the things out loud" I'm like MAKE IT THEN!! Haha.... we have to at least try to believe they mean it and would say it all the time if they weren't male, cause it's soooo hard to change them :p Do you find this valuable? |
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Ohhsuger |
3. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 2:10 AM EDT
Oh my god you guys are amazing, honestly you are! I love this site for the wonderful people in it, I never expected to find people like you on this site.. thanks for everything, and yeah, my boyfriend gets pissed of at my constant asking if I'm pretty, and sometimes I'd ask if other girls are prettier, once he said " there are many beautiful, very beautiful- girls I've seen, but I don't care cause I love u " its sweet and all but .. many? ,,, very beautiful?... you've seen?! D: .. lmao, maybe I do over react a bit sometimes.. but I can't help it, I just cant I'm obsessed
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Ohhsuger |
4. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 2:21 AM EDT
Thanks all of you, and I think its really good that we are all watching out for each other on this site!! boyfreinds are weird, and they get on our nerves, but what would we do without them? :P I lost all the weight cause my boyfriend made twiggy look fat o.o.. Btw I'm going to a swimming party today, I'm too ashamed to wear a bikini, but the swimsuit I got is really hot cause its very well designed, I might- ( I might) post a picture later :P but I'll think about it.. anyways I'm really scared of the, oh she's average, but really curvy comment.. **** >.< I'm really scared! well wish me luck and really thank you for all the support you have been wonderful.. now honestly, I guess I have someone to go to when I'm feeling down. Do you find this valuable? |
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WickedChild |
5. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 4:05 AM EDT
My boyfriend is seriously an angel in almost every way, but like many of us I'm CONSTANTLY in DIRE need for loads and loads of praise and attention, and he's too... easygoing I guess I would say, to shower me with what I need all of the time. I normally get my fill of attention just walking to and from work (god bless the male strangers who un-creepily compliment me haha).Anyways, yeah and I know what you mean about the... semi-compliment, like many pretty girls? And you notice them all I'm sure... haha. Truth is we just have to remember that guys are far less thoughtful than us. FAAAR less. We also have to remember there is much to love about ourselves, and the people who do love us aren't blind liars, but it sure does feel like that most of the time... Love ya lovelies! I'm posting a new thread about a diet I'm doing for the next few days, lord I am sooo desperate to drop a few.. Do you find this valuable? |
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Ohhsuger |
6. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 4:24 PM EDT
I'll check out your new thread soon :P . Today, I was soooo pissed off cause my phone fell in water while I'm getting a manicure and pedicure .. So, I prayed to god.. Please, please let a guy tell me I'm pretty .. you know when they say becareful what you wish for.. I forgot I wanted a polite pretty comment.. and so, everywhere I go, I'm trying to get a phone to call my lost freind with.. the guys have to flirt, it was so hard to focus, and most of them looked like those pink wearing weirdo's with spiky hair and a cheesy smile.. Its weird how they all looked alike o.o .. I got even more pissed xD I think god is trying to teach me something here.. also my friend was on a date with her boyfriend and looking at them it was soo cute, .. I felt a little lonely my boy lives in another country Do you find this valuable? |
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WickedChild |
7. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 4:31 PM EDT
Aw I'm sorry! My phone is like my life source, I would go nuts without it. That must be hard having your boy in another country, how does it work? do you guys just keep up communication really well?
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Ohhsuger |
8. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Sep 22 2009, 7:31 PM EDT
yeah, people think its stupid.. but I've never felt this way about anyone, and we talk every single day & night, were on cam and we set up dates and stuff. we don't miss out on anything .. he doesn't mind it.. and I don't to, I don't even notice he is in another country. honestly I cant live without him anyways in a month he is coming here so I'll have an actual date.. I never thought it would work at first but it did! ... My phone :( its a blackberry, I miss it so much.. tomorrow I'll take it to get fixed I really hope it works!
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Mandymoos |
9. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Yesterday, 12:07 AM EST
Sweetie, I'm sure that you are such a beautiful person. There will always be people that try to push you to lose the weight but don't push you in the right ways. She shouldn't have said that, especially if you've lose so much weight. That's messed up, and I doubt you're even "a little fat" if you've been ana and dieting so well for so long.You don't sound like a child. You sound like a person, with emotions and hopes and thoughts. Don't worry about what she says, and trust your boyfriend when he says you have a perfect body. Obviously he loves it. So cheer up, buttercup! You're beautiful =] PS sorry for interrupting your convo with WickedChild. I didn't mean to, you can delete my comment if you want, haha. Sorry. Do you find this valuable? |
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Ohhsuger |
10. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Yesterday, 8:53 PM EST
You sure do know the rights words to say! Even though that was a long time ago, what you said did make me feel better .. I've lost 6 KG (12 lb )since then and the last time she saw me she told me that my face has gotten too-thin.. I'm glad she noticed the weight difference , Thank you so much for your kind words, shows you have an amazing personality .. I'm glad I've found people that understand, Keep up your sweetness, the world needs more people like you. <3 Do you find this valuable? |
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Mandymoos |
11. RE: :'( a - little- fat.
Yesterday, 9:25 PM EST
I'm glad her words didn't have a negative effect on you and you kept up the dieting. I just stumbled across this, I hadn't realized it was from so long ago =pI'm still glad to hear you're doing well and that she noticed. Always the upside =] And yeah, most of the people here are pretty supportive, I've noticed more recently. These are some of the nicest people I've found in a long time. Do you find this valuable? |
